The Foreign Peace

Written Thursday-


Its a funny thing this peace feeling. A feeling I haven't felt in quite awhile. For the past couple days my life has literally revolved around work. When I get home, I watch my Dr.Phil espisode to unwind for a little bit, watch someone else have problems. Then I rummage through my backpack and find 3 pages of math, 2 World Civ journals to do, a report on Homer ( no NOT Simpson), and study 70 vocab words for Spanish.Just looking at it literally drains me. Literally. I sit and stare and I don't want to do it. Why do homework. When I am dead is it really gonna matter how many pages I wrote and how many math problems. Yah, I didn't think so. But I have to stay in the honors student position and do it. By the time I am done I check my email and go to bed. And when I get to bed, I just Zonk out. I am gone.

Then I get up at 6:30 in the morning and when I get home I do it all over again. I haven't had a day of school when I didn't have any homework, or babysitting, or driving with my Drivers ED teacher. But tonight at 6 when I went to my backpack after I did my math I found out that I had NO HOMEWORK! Huzzah!

But the problem- I didn't know what to do. Literally I didn't know what to do, because I had no homework, I haven't just gotten to "chill" for a while. So then I watched a GREAT show, survivor. Then I grabbed a book and plugged un my Ipod which probably thought I was dead and turned it to the MULAN soundtrack. Great sound track by the way. I set the volume on low and read some Velvet Elvis. Pretty good book by the way. Then after an hour, I went to bed.

But its sad, how the peaceful feeling has become so foreign to me. Kinda scary. Because or world revolves around how busy we are and how much we can do in a day. Maybe the real focus should be on how peaceful we are and how good we feel on the inside, Spirituality wise and stuff. Ah Peace sweet peace, how I love thee.