Cody and Jeannie.......

I knew it would happen eventually, just not so soon. I swear my Youth Group has a 2 year curse. Dave the YM before Cody and Jeannie stayed 2 years then they left. I thought that we would have one for at least 3 years this time. I am sorry to say that is not the case.

Cody and Jeannie asked if I would come down to Cody’s office before 1st service so that they could tell me something. I knew deep down in the pit of my stomach that they were going to tell me that they were moving. I had a feeling when they told me they went to Denver, that they were going to move their. But I had to hold on to what little faith I had. Even though I knew they were going to leave. So when I got to the office we all sat down, then they told me. I was and I still am devastated. I haven’t cried this hard in a long time much. They stayed down in the office with me for the whole first service, while I cried and blubbered on. I felt like an idiot. Not for trusting them, but for crying so hard. They told me they both are going back to school. It’s been a dream of theirs.

I am proud of them for following their dreams, and doing what they feel is best for their family at this time. Even if it does piss me off. You see, they were way more than just Youth Ministers to me, WAY MORE. They were an Open Heart, Confidants, and most of all best friends. They were there for me when I needed to talk, or to vent my feelings. They answered all the many questions I had, and gave me what they felt in their hearts was right also.

It’s so hard for me to let them leave. Even if they are just going to Denver and it’s (I think) about 8 hours from where I live. I cant wrap my mind around all the changes- The car rides, the inside jokes that we all made, sitting with them at service, seeing them every week at the coffee shop, playing mow and golf and scum ( card games), chatting on the internet, and much more. I can’t fully wrap my mind around it, its too much.

I don’t want to get e new YM because I know that no one could ever replace Cody and Jeannie, No-one could be a better best friend to me than they have. The new one just won’t get me. I know it. It’s too hard.

So after 1st service, we went to get coffee then they were going to announce it to the class. They combined the 2 individual classes and then told us. I knew what they reaction for some was going to be, my friend Megan took it exactly like me, and so did Candice. Oh how I love Candice. She isn’t afraid to tell it like it is. And I love that about her. She took the news pretty hard too. We went down to Cody’s office after class and just stared at the wall, all the things he did to it, and we stared at the coveted door. He has put every little drawing, picture and reminiscent that we gave him on that door. And now its going to be gone. We all just cried. It was a rough day. And it’s going to be a rough rest of the month. They leave around September 1st. Before the little “Chalupa” is born.

I am going to stop writing this soon because its still a little too much to wrap around at this point. I know that Jeannie and Cody and I will stay in touch and talk and they’ll come to visit and I’ll come to visit, but it just isn’t going to be the same not getting to see them every week. It’s just not going to be the same.

I just don’t think I can start over, and be as close to the new YM as I am with the two best Youth Ministers that anyone will ever have in the whole world. There is just no comparison.

And I am sick of everyone telling me that its going to be ok. Several people have called me this morning and told me it’s going to be ok. NO ITS NOT. At least not right now. I am sick of people telling me that we’ll get a new one. I don’t want a new one, I want Cody and Jeannie. I don’t think people realize how much they meant to me, and the Youth Group. I wish people would stop telling me how to feel, and that were going to get a new one. Because they can’t be replaced.

I probably won’t post for awhile because I am going to go to Alaska for 2 weeks, so posts will be at a minimum.

God bless.